We use to obsess about things we consider important: “that” mistake, doubting about a concrete decision, your discomfort with your own body or mind, a diet, workout, work goals, keeping in anger to someone, regret… they take away our sleep.
But ah… life is much more immense and volatile than you will ever be able to imagine. I have my own statistic saying that the 90% are blessings, but we take them for granted, just because they have always been there. Only when you have a severe disease, appreciate your health; when you are poor, little caprices; when you’re alone, someone by your side; when you’re at the city, the mountains. When you’re at the seaside, the mountains. The list never ends.
It must be very difficult to appreciate things around us because we hardly do it. Being thankful is not about regretting or a religious fact, it’s just knowing the value life/Universe/fate have given you to run your life and open ways. Or close them, which is as important. Whether a privileged mind, a loving circle of people, a beautiful homeland, financial stability, strong health, boldness, kindness…
Our mind runs “comfort ruts” we’ve been building along our lives. Influenced by a million factors. But sometimes, it only takes a right word, a perfect thought to break into pieces the way your mind complains about something, torturing you and making you miserable. Sometimes, you only need to put down (slowly…) your ego and accept you are the owner of your mind, and so the way you face and react to every rock in the way.
Stop looking around. Stop blaming life. Blaming people. Stop blaming yourself. You can only learn from your own mistakes, your own fears and demons. There, right there in the darkest and deepest private room of your soul, you’ll find the answer. The key to love yourself, to forgive your failures. The reason to fight to death. The beat keeping you alive. Once you have opened that door, no storm can demolish you, you become the storm.